I preserve considering I’ll see a transparent path ahead, however the horizon shimmers sufficient that the subsequent step is obscured. This time my horizon was the opposite aspect of my first yr in remission, however the CT scan I used to be alleged to have this afternoon has been pushed again one other few weeks. Oh yeah, and we’re going to do a bone scan too, as a result of the PET scan wasn’t permitted. That may occur across the finish of the month.
I really feel like I’m within the clear. I really feel stronger these days; strong is how I’ve been describing it.
I’m positive the docs wish to hedge their bets; how intently can they actually be speaking on a regular basis, anyway, huh? I imply, how typically does my oncologist discuss to my nateropath oncologists? Or my acupuncturist, therapeutic massage therapist, bodily therapist, ache specialist, neurosurgeon, second opinion neurosurgeon, neurologist, main care physician, ache psychologist, or osteopath discuss to one another? I’ve standing appointments and/or relationships with all these practitioners… to not point out an odd session of free reiki that I get on the most cancers middle. Different semi-regular appointments embrace a visit to the gynecologist, feldenkris practitioner, and palliative care nurse…
I believe it’s obvious by now that it’s my accountability to let every doc I see know what the opposite one mentioned…
However don’t neglect to make that appointment. I’ve been notified that I would like to change from Summit to Saint Charles palliative care, and since I haven’t heard from them since my final appointment, I must name them. It’s on me…
Oh, and schedule the mind MRI for November too. Get it scheduled when insurance coverage approves it, however bear in mind to name a number of instances as a result of nobody lets you understand insurance coverage has permitted it…
Oh, and get substitute air filters for the 4 air purifiers at dwelling; the wildfire smoke has them clogged all up after the weeks of poison air, and I’ve lung most cancers and all…
Sure I’m feeling higher. Sure I began going to yoga once more, Sure I’ve made a couple of enjoyable journeys this summer time and have a couple of extra developing, however I really feel like I’m sinking generally from the sheer effort of all of it. Thank god I’ve a sort A persona, what do these of you do who’re by yourself? I’ve a loving accomplice, an engaged and supporting mom, and lots of shut associates who care about me deeply. I understand how fortunate I’m, and although I’m paying for a few of these appointments out of pocket, wow, my insurance coverage positive does cowl a variety of it, and I’m so glad my landlords are caring and respectable individuals who have offered an inexpensive place to reside in Bend. I reside a merely sufficient that I can keep right here, because the city is shortly turning into a metropolis earlier than my eyes.
At yoga this week I used to be given the cardboard “Voyage,” and it appears apt. Most cancers is a journey. I haven’t survived most cancers, I reside with it. And we’re coming to phrases and the world nonetheless turns.
